Often when I have so many thoughts and interests stirring in my mind and feel the pull and desire to write that I am held back by my own loss of organization and compulsion for perfectionism. I also don’t know exactly what I want to get out or who to share it with. I don’t have a target audience and in fact it stresses me out to think who would, could possibly be my audience. It’s as if writing and leaving thoughts in print is equal to being naked walking down the street, but perhaps around many naked people being that there are a gazillion people writing every second of the day putting their thoughts and content out into the world in some form or another.
As far as what to get out, that is a matter of decompartmentalizing myself and honestly not worrying at this point what theme or kind of blog or page this content is sitting on or that it has to fit into any kind of theme or category. What is frustrating is the domestication, the separation and compartmentalizing we are taught and find ourselves surrounded in. Everything is structured and has sections for a purpose and efficiencies I’m sure, but it goes levels deeper when we stop and think about how much it actually functions in our psyche and hinders or dictates how we operate in our daily lives which I believe stunts our overall human potential and growth.
An example of our societal compartmentalizing would be how we treat our human health. We go to different specialists for different parts of our humanness. We have medical doctors and physicians for our physical body, which breaks down into every body part and system having a specialist, and then there are specialists for mental health, and of course, spiritual leaders and religions left for spiritual wellbeing. Specialists are not the problem, but singling out and treating one part of a person doesn’t seem to work when not considering the whole person, that’s the problem.
Like it or not everything is connected in some way, shape or form and it doesn’t seem logical to separate and segregate aspects of ourselves no more than it makes sense to do so when looking to be well in health. Our mind, body, and soul are as separate as they are one like a tree is made of roots, trunk, branches, and leaves. My person is interested in learning, developing ideas, throwing out possibilities of what is not but could be for the greater good of humanity. My person is a truth seeker, that collects data and uses the information to become a better person and help other people become their better selves. My person challenges the status quo of isms and struggles to be aware of implicit biases we are born into. My person is adaptable to situations and other persons. Specific interests are social justice, nutrition, and writing.
While my top interests drive what I read, think and talk about it is not, of course, all that I read, think or talk about. For that very reason, that I am not the culmination of only three subjects, I stress about what to write when it comes down to releasing the form and topic of writing that feels most like coming out.
What I have learned is to just write. I am wired to explain, perhaps even over-explain myself at times, so the important task is to write and not stress that what I am writing about has to fit into a theme or have a specific purpose to be valid in this world.